they call gerls bitches..

but..

they dunnoe...

dat they r oso..

juz a bunch of jerk assholes..

da kawin pn masih nk

menggatal..

g chat..

knl2 ngn pmpn..

abe nk ajak kua la..

wtf..

topupkn kad aku lg..

basket btl..

if aku tau la..

die da kawin..

tkkn aku lyn nye..

eee..

geramnye aku ngn laki mcm ni..

FUCK btl la..

nasib aku tk tau

sape bini die..

if aku tau..

da aku blg perangai suami die mcm ne..

bkn yg muda je uat perangai...

da tua2 g2 pn

masih nk uat perangai..

eeeee

bingit seh...

ish ish ish..

mcm nk bunuh je laki2 yg mcm gi ni...

argh!

damn im stress..

always stress...

life full of stress aren't full of colours..

sakit ati seh..

aku pk aku btl2 da jmpe kwn yg

baik..

yg aku bole btl2 panggil kwn..

tap ni tdk..

die pn mcm jantan2 yg lain..

hilang mcm tu je..

wtf..

nk tunggu aku konon...

suke pat aku konon...

g mampus la..

ngn laki2 ni semua..

fark them all..

&

their lies..

sweet talking mother farkers..

i'll show them

dat im a gerl

who doesn't need a guy!!!!

k guys listen up

wanna b my man

here r sum tings u need to have

• a good personality
• non-drinker
• ada bimbingn ugama
• if possible,non-smoker
• understanding (not only me but oso my family)
• loving (towards me & accept me for who i am)
• caring
• respect (ME & MY DECISIONS)
• respectful & filial towards family (both sides)
• pandai g pasar
• pandai uat keje uma
• responsible
• has a gd heart
• always b thr for me
• juz b urself & i'll accept u the way u accept me

if u guys have all diz

then u r ryte for me

if not

dream on

not only i wunt accept u

my parents will pull u away from me

*outs*

well...

i know years has passed..

&

i should have dropped the subject..

act..

i did..

but...

now i tink i should tell u..

the real reason..

y i have rejected u..

without even tinking..

reason being...

is i love u too much...

to lose u..

i know it may sound stupid...

coz..

we hvnt even b a couple but i juz say it wont werk..

coz..

i cnt imagine if it really didnt werk...

i wouldnt know hw to face u..

&

b frens again wif u..

its gonna b real awkward...

&

at dat point of tym...

i was too immature..

i didnt know hw to b a gf..

haha...

to b a gd gf..

to u...

so dats pressurising..

&

we cum frm two diff worlds..

im the goody-goody

&

ur the bad boy..

so mcm langit & bumi..

tk sepadan..

i juz have to say

dat

i really really love u...

dari dulu ampai skg..

hehe..

but...

whoever u pick to b ur gerl..

i happy for u...

k im bck

haha

so where were we

ok my thoughts & theory

nw the

3rd thought

cn u really fall in love

for sumone u juz know??

well...

actually to b honest

i dunnoe

sumtyms it can b rue

but

most of the tyms

NOT

its jus infarctuation

or mild attraction

to the opposite sex

haha

maybe coz ur lonely

or juz bored wif the

phase of ur life

dats all

but to b really in love

dats hard to say

sum would know wen

they r in love

only

wen dat particular

sumone is no longer there

or juz out of reach

but

dis theory too

can b opposing

coz doesnt mean

u always tink of dat person

wen they r not there

100% assure dat u love

dat person

maybe its jus dat

u miss him/her

not being there

to talk to u

like u used to

ermm

yeah dats true..

but

all dis is part & parcel of life

the sweet & bitterness of life

dat everyone goes thru

*sunshine outs*

haha..

hear me talking rots k

well

1st thought

i actually realised sumting

so true

bothe gerls & guys

subconsciously

rejects sumone they know juz coz

of their looks

eventhou they r juz frens

bcoz

at the back of their mind

&

deep inside their heart

they r finding a suitable match

to b their partner

*100% true*

its my theory

no stealing aites

2nd thought

guys r the most sickening

bunch to understand

&

percaya

coz MOST

i emphasise again

MOST

r juz sweet talking freaks

they will melt ur heart

get u go

goo-goo ga-ga

for them

&

wen they r bored wif u

they juz dump u

like dat

wat the heck

its so frustrating thou

us

gerls

r so easily mesmerised

& touch

& cair by wadever they do

*yuck*

really disgusted

#contd#

i hate sweet talking mother fuckers..

they are juz a bunch of asshole jerks...

u might ask y m i soo frustrated..

its juz dat..

my life ever since SUFIE

has gone

has been in total mess

&

utter confusion

ieven thou i said & declared

dat we r no longer compatible

&

no longer together

but

honestly deep

down inside my heart

&

through the blood dats running

in my veins

i seriously love & miss him

i feel like killing myself

for cheating on him

&

lying to not only him

but

also me..

argh!!fuck all the shit in my life..

stupid me..

stupid brains i have..

SUFIE..where r u??

i really need an answer from u..

yeah it got me tinking..

wen one of the guy frens

asked me

wad i would do

if SUFIE

ever came back into my life

i seriously dunnoe

know idea

wad i would do

maybe

i would go back to him

maybe not

maybe i'll cry infront of him

maybe i'll get angry..

i seriously dunnoe

in utter confusion & despair

hatred & love

happy & sad

y m i like diz

i totally hate it

damn u

SUFIE

stop doing dis to me

y is it soo difficult??

jad attached susah..

jadi single pun susah..

fuck la seh..

so irritating..

cnt diz guys understand dat i need a break frm all diz shit..

y m i getting stress abt small petty tings...

fuck ar..

wen i tot my life would not have anymore probs..

damn..

please guys..

dun wait for me..

stop being sweet talking mother fuckers..

i hate it..

dun cheat my feelings..

juz leave me alone..

let us b frens...

its better dat way..

life wont b such a bitch..

diz is for you

coz thr r tings i wanna tell u

yes

i know i tell u abt every sgl guy i know

coz ur the only person i can ask for advice

but

u cant seem to c the hurt & change

dat im goin thru

so its ok

to tell u the truth

im not hurt

by the msg u sent

juz abit

disappointed coz

u cant seem to know the diff

between me yg dulu

&

me now currently..

my past,im naive & stupid..

but

my present im stronger,more truthful

abt my thoughts

&

feelings

my future is still a mystery

i know dat i always fall

for the wrong

guy

but

dat is the past

but nw im rejecting

every fucking guy

dat cums my way

&

i juz dun wan to hurt

dis guy in particular

coz

he seems to b

the

almost perfect guy

for me

coz

i know

good tings only cum once

so im using my brain to tink

& not my heart

dun worry

im not gonna

accept him

as my guy yet

coz i dun tink

i ever will accept anyone

not nw not ever

i juz

wan him to b my close fren

im letting u know abt dis

coz i wanna tell all of u guys

dat im gonna b perfectly fine

im happier

more stronger & firmer

i also wanna let u guys know

dat thr is sumone who is

looking out for me

so

u guys

dun have to worry

*loads of love*

sunshine

first of all...

diz is dedicated to my frens..

im sorry im pulling away

from all of u..

though our frenship

is 7-8 years

but i juz tink dat u

guys dun understand me dat much

u guys dunnoe wad i went thru

u guys dunnoe hw my parens r

so i tink its better for me

to pull away

u guys cnt c the diff

side of me

wen im at home

& wen im outside

im not ME>ME

there r diff sides of me

which u guys cnt c

IM SORRY